October 22, 2013

The Twelve Step Programme Works!

I woke up with the police in my living room and my two year old son running around – not knowing how I got there again.  My thirteen year old daughter was on her way home from school and was greeted by an ambulance and two police cars outside our […]
October 14, 2013

Trying to cut down or to stop drinking

I knew I had to cut down on my drinking. I thought this would do the trick. However, as my drinking got out of control, it began to impact heavily on my day to day life. I tried all ways to control my drinking from moderate drinking to having a […]
October 10, 2013

Relapse – just one drink – beware!

After I had completed my treatment, I felt good. I left The Haynes Clinic and felt it was time to start work again. I found some work in London and was attending AA meetings 3 times a week. Life was good and I felt good about being sober. I was […]
October 7, 2013

Losing control of my drinking

My daily life as an alcoholic – out of control What came first? Drinking too much so that my life fell apart? Or my life falling apart and then I drank too much? The truth is probably that both these things happened. My heavy drinking was at least part responsible […]
October 4, 2013

How did rehab help me?

In December 2010 I arrived at Haynes Clinic for professional help with my addiction to Alcohol and Drugs (cocaine). I could no longer live the life I was living. I needed help! I was running away from my inner self and my emotions by trying to be someone else with […]
October 2, 2013

At what age can people start to drink alcoholically?

As a teenager, I was not known for being a heavy drinker. I had my first alcoholic drink at the age of 13 when my sister and brother decided to give me a vodka and lime rather than the lemonade and lime I requested when I attended my first ‘disco’. […]
September 30, 2013

What is it like in an alcohol or drug rehab clinic?

I had my own ideas about coming into treatment. Would it be a boot camp or would it be people in white coats giving me a clinical point of view on my illness of alcohol addiction? I was desperate to get some help as I did not want to continue […]
September 24, 2013

If you are a mother who drinks too much, read on…

How Living with an Alcoholic Affected Me. Growing up as a child with an alcoholic parent was difficult and very confusing. My mother was an alcoholic from when I was very young. This made me feel very different as a child from other children around me, school was really difficult […]
September 19, 2013

Living with an Addict

Living With An Addict My name is Polly and I grew up living with an addict, a woman who today is in recovery from her addiction to alcohol, my mother. It’s year 2011 and I find that the easiest thing to say. Don’t get me wrong, it’s still difficult at times, but […]
May 5, 2013

Thoughts on Allen Carr's Easy Way to Control Alcohol (1)

I am going to read Allen Carr's 'Easy Way to Control Alcohol' and share thoughts with you as I read. As I am going to share as I go along, there are some assertions he makes that I am going to hold off having an opinion on until I can […]
May 4, 2013

Thoughts on Controlling Alcohol

I am about to read Allen Carr’s ‘Easy Way To Control Alcohol’. I need to read this as many people refer to it when ringing for help and advice, when their drinking has got out of control and it is ruining their life. They mention it in the context of […]
April 25, 2013

Story of a recovering alcoholic – my life today

After my 28 days in rehab I did find it difficult in the early weeks. I had been through a life changing experience and felt as if things had changed – but when I went home everything was just the same. I went straight back to work – but was […]
April 24, 2013

Story of a recovering alcoholic – turning the corner

My life was now totally out of control. I still had my job and was doing well, I still had my children, home and friends but alcohol was totally controlling me. What had been a habit became a necessity and I could no longer do anything without thinking of alcohol. […]
April 23, 2013

Story of a recovering alcoholic – reaching rock bottom

I quickly became pregnant again and this time ensured I did not drink. I allowed myself up to 4 glasses of wine each week (never more than one on any day). I did not like being pregnant though I was never unwell – in hindsight I think I didn’t like […]
April 22, 2013

Story of a recovering alcoholic – progression of the illness

Ironically, I was a bit of a lightweight drinker as a teenager. My older sister and brother insisted I had my first drink at the age of 13. I asked for a lemonade and lime at a local disco (held in a barn – it was the mid 70s when […]
April 21, 2013

Story of a recovering alcoholic – the characteristics

Anyone can become an alcoholic or addict. If you are reading this, you may well know that, as only those with an interest in the subject are likely to be on this page. However, many people not ‘in the know’ may believe that you have to be poor, hopeless and […]
February 26, 2013

Progress not perfection

At the end of my drinking, I knew I could no longer live a life with alcohol. It was totally destroying me. However, I could not see a life without alcohol either. How would I cope when I needed it to get me through every aspect of my day? And […]
January 21, 2013

Our Children

One of my biggest regrets about my drinking is how it affected my children and how there is nothing I can do to take that back. At the time, I did not think I was doing them any harm. I thought I was a good mother – I loved them, […]
November 15, 2012

How to stay sober in early recovery – change your routine

I was a drinker who found it very difficult to stop in the environment I was in. There was nothing wrong with it – in fact, materially it was very pleasant and i did manage to stop – several times. But I could not stay stopped. I had not changed […]
October 29, 2012

My first week in treatment

After quite a pleasant weekend it was time for my first full week of work. By now, I was quite into being in the clinic and was up for a bit of time focusing on me. The daily routine was something like this: Get up and go and receive any […]
October 28, 2012

My first weekend in rehab

My first weekend in treatment began when I had only been at the clinic two days so it was all still feeling a little strange. By now, though, at least I knew I was going to be spending my time with people with whom I could identify and it was […]
October 27, 2012

Day one in rehab

My first full day in rehab was rather strange. To start with, I approached it with the attitude of just going through the motions. I was still so stubborn and pig headed that I had refused to book in for more than 14 days. I was only going to do […]
October 26, 2012

Arriving in rehab

I really didn’t want to go to rehab as I was a bit frightened – not of what I would have to face there as I could not conceptualise that, but I didn’t want to be parted from my drink, though I knew it was making me ill and utterly […]
August 9, 2012

The love we can find in recovery

I was recently at my daughter’s final assembly at primary school and the well know tale ‘Footsteps’ was told to them. Most of you will know this: One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the dark sky flashed […]